The river

The moon makes a silver band across a charcoal river. And our feet squelch and our legs tire through the midnight of everything.

A bat might be flapped by the gale and flap and flap from one mountain shape to another. A powerline might make an incision across an aerial future. Or a past.

And Heaven might reign in a galaxy beyond the clouds.

A name echoes in a mind, that’s mine. Is it Viva? This gale is to a breeze as a whisper is to the way she might yield.

Gums to the left wave against a ghostly horizon. And mountains on the right could draw from the clouds what they have from the scrub. Perhaps it will rain. And the river will rise.

Her Gun

No, Sir

You can’t take my pants off, Sir -

My boyfriend is a jealous

And dangerous man

And he would surely kill us both.

 

Why I talk in my sleep, Sir

And I would tell him what you did to me

And where you live

And where I hid his gun.

 

He will surely kill us both

When I tell him how I sobbed and begged

As I dangled

From your hand.

 

So no, Sir

I won’t I take my pants off, Sir

Because I can’t take off

What I don’t have on

And I know where he keeps his money

And I suppose I could tell you

Where I hid his gun.

 

Sharp against Skin

Sharp against Skin

Laurie arranged the invitations. I wouldn’t have gone but Guido and Margle were keen. It would be just like our social except the chicks would be posh. (Why would Heidelberg sheilas with all their airs want to be hanging around us?)

We’d all met posh sheilas on that school excursion last year. It was only a few months back. How could they have forgotten? Particularly Guido. He was supposed to be smart. Laurie I could understand, but Guido. Posh chicks either ignore you or waste your time. And they hate skinheads.

“Alright. I’ll go.”

So on the night, as we’re heading off across town on the pov bus to posh Hi-diddle-berg, Laurie says the Heidelberg Sharps will be there. He’s heard they’re interested in a little too-doo with the Broadie skins, whom, due to the lack of interest from any genuine skins, we are to represent.

“As if there’ll be a stink at the fucken dance for the Academy of Saint Maria fucken Theresa the protector of the virginity of the bleeding heart of Mary.”

“How many of us are invited? How many of them can there be?” At last Guido turns sensible.

To be perfectly square with you, I’m not really a skin. I just like the uniform. Tonight I’m in the light grey gab baggies with the yellow polyester polo under the yellow striped, light grey Conti cardigan. (It has a little yellow belt at the back.) The uniform is marked with an absurd royal blue tie, in honour of the dress regs, which we’ll be flouting once we get in. The uniform sits okay on my ample barrel torso and the shoes are the clout. Each of my shoes is three pounds of trouble- navy blue with six inch platform soles. Trouble to lump around but they’re all the insurance I’ve got.

Margle’s hatching plans to bolt but if it gets ugly. My shoes are insurance- that I can’t run. I’ll have to wield them as best I can and rely on skull thickness for survival. I’ve got other skills too. I can quote Marvell, Donne, Browning, Shakespeare, Ginsberg and Cohen. So can Guido. If need be, I’m pretty confident we can talk our way out of it.

But trouble is all the excitement I can hope for. I’ve spent plenty of time in the mirror but it wasn’t enough. It’s never enough for that head. Not like a robber’s dog- like a robber’s dog’s arsehole. The skinhead do (technically a “Droog”) is not suited to my dumb Teutonic head. My new heavy brow and cheekbones are trying to cut their way out through the skin and the cheek flesh is reddening around the escape route. I have a nose. I’ve never had one of these before but I do now and it’s crooked. I’m deformed, one of nature’s hideous mutilations and for the life of me I can’t figure why nobody’s said anything to me about it. They don’t even rib me about it in fun- it’s like it’s too hideous even to mention. People don’t even start fights with me about my crooked nose. I’m a spaz who should be punished for his normality first.

As we get off the bus my Crestknit polo is coming up from my still chubby waistline and I’ve got to stop and tuck myself in and of course the boys are getting into me.

That’s when I notice their shoes. Margle’s got platforms. I can count on him. Laurie’s got Cuban heel boots (R.M.Williams Santa Fe) but Guido’s wearing runners. Guido’s fifteen stone of bench press muscle. We need him.

“You’re not gunna get in with those runners. They won’t let you in. You know the rules.”

“I’ll climb in through the dunny window if they won’t let me in.”

“If they don’t let him in, we’ll go in and I’ll bring him out your shoes. Then you can swap back inside.” Laurie was only ever practical if he could be devious at the same time. You had to admire that about him. He was like a mother.

I’m not too struck on the morale so I bellow out the song-

Jesus loves the little skin’eads

All the little skin’eads of the world

With our braces and our boots

And our juicy little roots

Jesus loves the little skin’eads of the world

They wait until I finish.

Guido arks up again, “When was the last time you had a juicy little root, Rob?”

“Get fucked. You hadn’t had one when you were my age.”

“I was fifteen when I fucked Peta.”

“What was her last name? Eh? What was her last fucken name? Eh? It was O’Toole. Her name was Peta O’Toole. You fucked Lawrence of Arabia.” I start with the limp voice now, “‘Yes, Effendi, Yes.’” And then “Poofter.”

“Don’t give me that shit. We’re all poofters. Fucken poofter. And I’m a cocksucker too. I sucked Effendi’s cock.”

I left it at that. It was tough to win a war of words with a sixteen year old, straight talking iconoclast.

We’re at this dance social thing by now. Rose Tattoo is the headline act. It’s a big hall. It holds three thousand, I reckon. Maybe ten. They’ve got posh middle aged women on the door. Polite looking blokes smiling at us from behind them. Not six months earlier twenty of us cleared a main street without even a sneeze and here they are smiling at us. Like we’re harmless. It bodes ill.

“Welcome gentlemen. What school are you from?”

“Fairy College.” (That’s Margle, bloody idiot. They’ll look at Guido’s shoes.)

“Now that’s enough of that. Therry College, and your names, gentlemen?”

“Do go in”

Margle coughs “Suck me off” and we go through these huge posh doors about fifteen feet high.

We’re at the top of ten stairs about fifty yards wide. The sound of an under card band is bad but restrained by the politeness of the controlling forces. The noise has made the air really thick. Thicker than air but still fluid. It holds us at the top of the stairs for a minute. The walls have these huge murals- the album cover of “The Divine Miss M” plastered all over them, the size of trees. Miss M’s orange and black and wavy like she feels the fluid too. These chicks have gone to a lot of trouble for whoever it is they really wanted at this gig.

The crowd’s a long handball away. But we’re still surveying. Laurie’s looking for sharps. He’s so paranoid. It’s yellow. The light is yellow. Or amber. Everything is held by the thick air and the amber light.

And then some figures start making for the door. We’re obviously in the way because we’re in the middle of fifty yards of doorway. The figures are wearing dresses. And one works her way to the front and from three or four steps below reaches up and takes my hand.

It took me a long time to piece that moment together. This is how I guess it in retrospect: Four young men walked in like they owned the place. The one in the middle must have been six-foot six. Like a bear on stilts with a shaved head and big golden Shirley Temple curls at the back which almost reached his shoulders. And his eyes were a bit crooked. They kinda sparkled out of his brow shadow, one with kindness and the other like it held a sad secret. And he was a giant king visiting foreign shores, flanked by worthy knights.

I guess I’m trying to say that the light was flattering me. Not just the chick. Anyway I’m seeing her for the first time, reaching up to me from four steps below my might. And she’s a woman. And she’s beautiful. She’s got long big hair and it’s like a tuft, a huge tuft of black matted stuff like seaweed and her face is small and pretty with fine features. Her black eyes are looking hard into mine and she says “I’m Annette. What’s your name?

I lie straight up “My name’s Bert”. She tells me she’s an actress and I tell her I’m an actor on account of my part in “The Little Man” or some shit. And she’s leading me down the stairs, down into the amber fluid and I’m behind her pale salmon full length satin tail and it’s a fine tail. She’s leading me to a group of friends and my knights are in tow, eyes peeled for salmon of their own. Her hair stops trailing out behind her as she stops and introduces “Bert, the actor”. They regard me with familiar disdain.

But Annette’s determined that I should meet some other group of friends. “Better ones” so I get dragged off to the next clique. More “Bert, the actor”. More of the usual look.

Now she leads me to a chair near the wall under the wavy mural and she beckons me to sit. Then she plumps on my lap and winds her long arms around me. She’s rubbing her hair against my face and her soft breath starts to make a whooshing sound in my ear. The mural sways and something lighter than her hair falls on me. Like a fine grid of electricity, the lightest current at first and as her mouth works its way along my neck and up to my open mouth stronger, so it’s making me writhe. Like I’m fighting it at first and then I seem to move in motion with it and the amber light and the mural. I move against her. She’s rubbing her round arse against me, like she’s frotting me. The electricity is focused for a minute and then she’s back in my ear and little jolts are being set off between us. It seems like an hour of variable charge before she stands, kissing me gently on the mouth and says “I’ve got to see some friends for a few minutes. I’ll be back soon.”

And I’m free on the outside but the net is caught up inside me now. And it’s then that I notice that two of my trusty knights have been by my side throughout my capture. And now they feel the joy of my freedom as much as I should.

“Fuck, that chick’s really working you over, man. You’ve got to fuck her. Waddya reckon, Margle?”

“He’s goin’ alright. That’s for sure. She’ll fuck you, mate.”

“Where’s Laurie?”

“Reconnaissance. He can’t believe the joint’s not infested with Sharps.”

“Are you two having any luck?”

“These moles are all vicious snobs, mate. You just got lucky.”

“So are there any sharps?”

“Don’t worry about it, Rob. Just see if you can get her to go outside because she’s going to root you.”

And then she’s back, smiling and leading me to a chair a little further away and plump on the lap again. The kissing is going a lot smoother now, not so much grinding of gears and the electricity is much stronger and a lot more focused in the warm area of lap contact. And she can feel that and she’s squirming and then shoving her tongue into my ear. The swoosh sound has the ocean’s secrets mixed with my heartbeat. I cringe towards it as my shoulders knot and the writhing starts within again until finally I break my ear free with a shake of the head and say “Why don’t we go outside, just for a while?” but she’s firm with the “No” and she re-starts on my face and the electric net spreads over my upper body again. And Miss M sways. And the amber light and the music hold me in their rhythm for another tide.

“Why don’t you come and meet some more of my friends.”

I’m firm now. “No.”

“Oh, come on, Bert. You’ll love them. Just a few more.”

“No, not now. Maybe later.”

“Look, I’ve got to see someone. I’ll be back.”

And Laurie’s looking at me and I stand grinning at my centurions. I notice that it’s cooler than before, but only in the front of my pants, now with a dark grey precum mark that I don’t need to look at. Laurie looks worried but before he can speak she’s back and grabbing my hand and leading me to the front of the hall on the other side.

“You’ve just got to meet these people. They’re dying to meet you. Just dying.”

And I go because when we get back from this meeting I’m going to insist but on the short hustle through the schools I realise that she’s re-engineered me. Replumbed me- she’s been pouring some liquid into my ear that has leaked out of my dick.

And she starts again with “This is Bert, the actor” to the odd posh sheila who gives me the usual (on the rocks) and we start to make our way into this big tight group, through this reef of hangers-on and she’s pushing through and eventually they part. And we’re in. There’s a bloke sitting on some steps with a circle of a dozen generals around him, each confiding in him while they stare stilettos at me as we take our place in the middle of his court. She walks up to him and says “Greg, I’d like you to meet my new boyfriend, Bert. Bert, this is my ex-boyfriend, Greg.”

So, with precum, darkening and chilling light gaberdine, a bear on stilts, with Shirley Temple curls and one kind eye reaches up and shakes the hand of the King.

And is dismissed.

So I walked out of that little circle quite cheerily with Annette on one arm and Miss M waving over my shoulder. Back to my comrades, who had been briefed by Laurie on Annette’s former relationship and imminent trouble with the Sharp King. And did they look relieved when I told them he didn’t care? Guido, who had runners on, reminded us that we’d have to leave soon or we’d miss the last pov out of posh town.

Annette gave me some goodbye pashing which was almost as good as the first set and confessed that her real name was Anita. And I reminded her that mine was “Bert” and that I was an actor.

Soon enough the gentlemen and I were outside gasping air and hooting about our good fortune. For days. And I learned the easy way that a kiss is never just a kiss.

 

 

 

 

Mustang Hearts (Mad draft)

Mustang Hearts (2006)

Clyde Whelan was the boss. Mean as cat shit. He wore hairspray, all over himself, hair, clothes, skin. He was short. Looked tortured, like he’d just swallowed a raw steak full of fish hooks and the hair spray was stopping him from fully conveying the agony. He walked like the back of an invisible ergonomic chair had been shoved up his arse and he was gliding around on its invisible castors.

He was some kind of zombie, walking dead. Rotten. He’d never had a head job and his dick had turned in on his body looking for revenge, eating him up from the inside. It seemed to be up to the lungs when I first met him, maybe even the thyroid.

He had a virtue. He had sold more Cortinas than any living human being. I once thought that Cortina buyers were the stupidest farts ever to stain a vinyl seat but as soon as I found out about Clyde’s virtue I revised my estimation of them – they are stupider than that.

The Cowboy was in the next office. He didn’t say much when I first arrived at Austen Autos Mitsubishi. Not to me or the other guys in New, anyway

In the office next to him was Brace Clapknee. Brace had a whole heap of worms swarming around his guts. He was walking dead too. Just like Clyde. They were great mates, sharing parasitic sniggers and mollusc winks. Brace made sure everyone knew that he was an engineer. Not a car salesman. We could have done with a Casey Jones out on those dusty desert plains but he wasn’t that kind of engineer. He couldn’t even pronounce the word. He’d say “I’m an injun ‘ere”.

He was a natural enemy to any cowboy. And the truth is he was worse than an Injun. He was British.

In New we sell Mitsos. One of the perks is that we all get transports. Clyde’s got two – the beloved Pajero (the Cowboy told me that’s Spanish for cocksucker, but maybe he was using load) and he’s also got a part time trannie – the turbo Stallion. The Cowboy has a Smegma Executive (base model but with schmick wheels) and Brace has the Smegma SE (second from the top model). I get a Stigma 2.6 automatic. No wheels. No roof. No air. It beat the shit out of walking.

(Clyde) Whelan and Brace are made for each other. They’re off doing fleet sales pretty regular and that leaves me and the Cowboy to the heads. “Heads” is old school for prospective buyers. Back in the olden days, these mystical heads would just come floating in over mid century Buicks and Cadillacs- all promise and profit. They even look good rolling in on shoulders over the new Smegmas and Stigmas. Cowboy shares pretty fair – him getting the average to good looking heads and and me, I get the ugly ones. At least that’s his plan.

When Maryanne Biggums’ head rolls in he makes for his office and some lukewarm coffee so I say hello to her. She’s interested in the red Turbo-charged Cordial she says and like a Beatles clip he’s out and on the prowl an instant later and introducing himself to the lady. Why, he’s going to take Maryanne up the highway for a test drive. Clyde would never let me take the red Cordial out, he confided later.

I mope around my office studying up on the turbo Stallion. I’ll have my day. I’m wearing a dark school-grey suit but I’ve decided to buy a navy blue one next. Do you know what you get for murder? Seventeen years. If that. I got seventeen years for buying that navy blue suit. I reckon I got off light.

Maybe half an hour later and he’s back with Maryanne and they’re rolling across the showroom floor, back to his office. Flushed. Juiced up on the red Cordial. (He told me later that he drove and that the Cordial would blow the fucken doors off the Stallion – I reckon Clyde’s blowing the Stallion.)

And they’re drawing up the order but we’ve got to wait for Roy to value the trade and he’s tied up. So she can’t wait. She’s got to go and she’s gone but on a promise to return. It’s a weak moment for our team. She’s walked.

Now Roy’s free. He’s the boss of “Used” and he don’t miss much. His trannie is an older Statesman and he rules “Used” with HQ prestige. He’s always ripping in to his deadshits about figures and budgets and sheilas and drink but he loves heads. He loves dudding em to get their cars. He’s the one who told me the secret of the trade – “How do you know if a prospect’s lying? Dunno?” and then real dry “Lips are moving”.

Well you don’t need me to tell you that he’d spotted the big fella and Maryanne in tandem and doesn’t he start up giving him hell about rooting Miss Big Gums? And before it was the cordial but now it’s embarrassment that’s making him red. “She gives me a hew-mungus soft on. I wouldn’t fuck her with your dick.”

“How much load did you use?” It’s Roy with the jargon.

“I haven’t used any yet. That’s where you come in. Don’t forget to load up the trade.”

“What is it?”

“An eighty-three Colt.”

“Sounds more like a thirty-eight Colt. Was she holding a gun to your head?”

And the Cowboy blushes again and we crack up.

It’s our turn to do the fleet sales and the big fella’s got me assigned to his detail so that leaves Clyde and Brace to the heads.

We’re headed up the highway to TNT trucking and away from our huge lot with the glass and tin showroom that’s about as sturdy and almost as practical as a two storey screen door. It slams behind us. The big fella’s gonna sell em our new Gallop trucks at mad prices. There’ll be a drink in it for sure.

I’m ridin’ shotgun and y’all know that means in charge of music but there ain’t nothing as exotic as a “coloured radio station” so I’m directed to a tape in the console.

And when you’re downright disgusted

And your life ain’t worth a dime”

There’s a raven pickin’ over roadkill under old gums on the roadside, the plains rolling out into scrub and the scrub making way for bindis and the bindis doing their bit to hold the dust and the dust breaking free further up the highway and coming in the windows. And we’re on the highway to TNT.

“I saw the Stones a dozen times when I was in the States.” Says the Cowboy.

“When were you in the States?”

“Past ten years. I was just rambling – doing this and that.”

“Did you have a Mustang?”

“Yeah, for a while. I’m not a big fan. A poor man’s wild ride. They’re alright.” He mulls for a second or ten. “The last car I had was a Benz. A gull wing.”

“Silver?”

“Like a dollar. They only made em in silver.”

We both know that the gull-wing is the best and rarest car in the universe. The image of it is blazing in my mind and then I just lurch into the sky, borne by silver gull wings. Over the plains and off across the desert. And then I crash land. “What’s load?”

“It’s a technical term, mate. Jargon for bullshit. When we do a trade, we load it up. We discount the new car but we don’t tell the prospect- we load the discount on to the trade so they think they’re getting more for their trade. If you told em what Roy really values their car at they’d all walk.”

“So we use load?”

“They use load too, mate. Buyers are liars. Every number they tell you is loaded up.”

“So how much was the gull-wing?”

“They new fuck-all about them over there. I bought it for thirty grand and punted it for a hundred when I left. That’s where I got the money for the ranch.”

“So where’d you get the thirty?”

“Coke. Me and my mate, who’s a mad cunt, got this great scam for cutting blow. Eventually we didn’t even put any real shit in it. We’d use borax and crushed aspirin. The last deal we did was a classic. The guy snorts a line which is fifty precent powdered aspirin and his face goes numb and he says “Hey this is great shit” and he paid up on the spot.

“That deal was not in any way contaminated with any illegal drugs whatsoever. But we had to get out of there or we were cattle trucked when he found out.”

We weren’t long at TNT. The drivers buy their own rigs so you’ve got to do the deals one at a time. We’re wearing suits which standout like tuxedos against the bourbon dress code at the truck depot and the big fella feels it real bad. Gringos. Dudes. He’s untucking his shirt and dirtying up his shoes as we walk back towards the Smegma.

“Grouse wheels,” I nod at the mad rims on his base model transport.

“Yeah, grouse” he mourns.

He perks up on the way back and he just outs with “I’m gunna sell em those trucks one at a time.”

*

Clyde’s waiting for me when we get back. Waiting to give me brain damage about figures and budgets and targets. I wish we had that thirty-eight Colt.

Turns out the TNT drivers drink at the Sylvania Waters up the highway so the big fella’s off to do some scouting. The injun ‘ere is smug in his office watching me make the march past the small offices to the boss’s.

But Clyde doesn’t give me any grief up front. Just congratulates me (through five pounds of hairspray) on the new navy blue suit and on selling five new Colts to the Nurses Mob. Seems I’m finding my feet. Seems that he wants to tell me a yarn about something or other. The blinds are drawn and his desk lamp is facing the wall. It’s ambience. And he goes on at length about this air show where some F-14 Tomcat has buzzed the crowd and then just turned vertical at low speed and fired itself into space. And maybe he’d have looked animated if it weren’t so dark.

And I’m inwardly cursing the local ravens, the only birds you could rely on to pick over a cadaver on castors. If only this desert had some decent death birds. Vultures. Big desert vultures. Condors. A half dozen would have cleaned out Clyde and Brace years ago. Put us all out of their misery.

That’s when we hear Maryanne Biggums outside and the boss peeks through the venetians and grimaces. He pokes a sneer at the bird and I know he’s thinking about selling her the juice while the Cowboy’s up the pub with the TNT truckers.

Clyde goes out with a smile they oughta call McTorture and But Maryanne greets him with “Where’s Cowboy?” and I can see she’s been warned about the dangers of dealing with men with invisible chairs shoved half way up their arses. He can see it too as he glides back into the office telling her “Cowboy’s up the Sylvania” and then he locks me in with him again. Back to the F-14.

“It’s a swing wing, you know.”

“Yeah, I know. Mach 2.5. Huge payload of Tomahawks, Sidewinders, Mavericks and the like. A Gatling gun that fires cannon shells. The guy in the back operates the weapons systems and the guy in front flies it.”

“The guy in front works the weapons and the guy behind flies,” he corrects.

He’s wrong. Living in WWI as much as he lives at all. But he’s got me cornered and he wants something.

What I’d do for one condor, just one. But there is no solution from the skies. I’m gunna have to worm out of this myself so I out with “Wow, that’s a ripping story. You and your kid must have really enjoyed the air show. I’ve gotta remember to go next year.” And I crack a McTortured smile and make for the door and he lets me out.

Cowboy’s going up the Sylvania Waters again tonight but he doesn’t wear a suit to work these days. He wears one of those sleeveless trucker vests and cowboy boots. Old ones with jenn-you-wine desert dust on em. He’s ordered a box of those nylon trucker hats with “Austen Autos -The Home of the Gallop” embroidered on them.

The boys from “Used” gave him the name Cowboy because he wears the boots up the Sylvania Waters and that’s where they water their horses. His pants are tight with a slim-hipped, long legged swagger under a bear’s barrel belly. And he’s wearing one of the prized new caps. And he’s the same age as John Wayne but his real name’s Peter not Marian and he used to own a gull wing but he traded it for a ranch on the fringe of a desert. And I’m going up the pub with him to sell some rigs to truckies. And to give em trucker hats. In a navy blue suit.

So the trucker hats don’t go down too well because they’re red and the truckies aren’t too struck on those cowboy boots but they’re okay with the beer while it’s free. And then they go home under the legal limit and me and the cowboy stay on till well over the legal limit. And we discuss the future.

Seems he’s had a call from Fred Funt, the man behind the Golden Mile – the Fred Funt. Seems old Fred’s not getting any younger and he needs a forty-something maverick to take over one of the dealerships and he just loves the Cowboy’s load and he’s going to be the boss and he’ll do triple the budget that Maybelline Clyde is doing.

“Like a deputy?” I ask.

“Like a pardner.” He says.

And then he asks me what I’m plannin’ on doin’. And I tell him that my mate’s on the inside at Rand Corporation and that this has been just a three-month gig for me while I get the necessary experience to get a job selling Inter Continental Ballistic Missiles for them. ICBM’s! I’m gunna blow up the fucken world. It’s a good base wage for a young bloke with a family and a mighty healthy commission structure and they don’t dud you.

He tells me that Roy’s looking to train me as a valuer. And I’d be outta “New” and into “Used”. No more brain damage about bullshit from Clyde. They only train one every ten years and it’s a mighty earn and you don’t have to wear a suit and you get to buy in your own trannie and you can wear cowboy boots and then you can come down to the Golden Mile because I’ll need a valuer there for sure. “You could stake your claim.”

I was using load, of course. It wasn’t Rand I was going to. It was Remington and it wasn’t ICBM’s. It was computers. But one day I was gunna have a gull-wing and the best I could hope for as a valuer was a Mustang. If that.

He was gone to Fred Funt Ford on the Golden Mile within a week and I knew when he left that he hadn’t been using load on me. ‘Cept for dramatic effect.

It was the day that I said goodbye to Roy that Maryanne Biggums came back to get the valuation on her Colt. Roy loaded up the trade while I showed her another car. The boss had gone out with Brace but Roy had the keys to the Cocksucker in case we needed to move it.

And didn’t she love that Pajero? Didn’t that red duco look swell with the red of her gingham shirt and those wheels with her belt buckle? Just what she needed too – performance, safety, reliability – the boss’s precious trannie. And Roy only too happy to sell it out from under him. It had six grand in wheels and was completely unsaleable with all the options. The Dealer Principal (that’s Clyde’s boss) was around to approve us punting it at below wholesale. He was real pissed off when he saw the cost (loaded) of decals and steps and wheels and racks and roofs. He’d never have approved all that shit if he seen the figures before. Never. And because I was leaving it was only fair that we put Brace’s name on the paperwork so he could avail himself of the three dollars commission you get on a loss leader. That was only fair.

And Miss Big Gums looked like she’d been a year on health food from behind the wheel. Red Pajero, red cheeks and red lips.

*

A few months into my navy blue life I bought my first company car. A Smegma. Bought it from the cowboy and even though I got everything specced up just right and the money nailed down, I knew he’d dud me. On principle. But turned out it was just the mats.

He was grinnin’ and yelpin’ when he heard how we shafted Clyde but mine was the second account. He was just reliving it. I reckon Roy and him had cooked the whole thing up. “Injun ‘ered” it.

Three years later when I went to buy the second one from him he was dead. Heart attack at fifty.

His bones are up there on the mesa. By now condors have picked em clean. What worms they didn’t beat, they et.

But just thinking about then and him has reminded me of what we had before my seventeen years selling ICBM’s.

Something that was true like load,

Clear like boots on a saloon floor

and clean like dust.

Free like bindi thistles

and lazy like a whip.

And wild like hooves.

And lazy like the crack of a whip

and wild like hooves.

And we had em once.

Mustang hearts.

 

 

 

On Sorting Buttons

If I may be so bold. I mean I’m the first to admit that I will never have the wherewithal to undertake a project as grand as the sorting of buttons but I have my dreams.

In them I’m in a red velvet parlour seated on a golden couch. I’m wearing a 19th century French night gown and a thimble shaped butt plug. A plain cardboard box, which may contain buttons, lies unopened in a dramatically lit corner. A seven foot Negro eunuch  with a vintage portable Olivetti typewriter on his lap awaits my dictation. He is fanned by a topless Julia Gillard body double who in turn is about to be served tea by the (kimono clad) friendless faux lesbian who invented political correctness – now miraculously cured of the terminal box odour that is the root cause of the whole mess.

Through the art nouveau doors swans can be seen commencing flight from a silvery lake. And on the porch a pitbull and a Siamese cat gently masturbate each other having just sated their other appetites on the foetus of Adolph Hitler.

And now that I have spent half of an eternity in contemplation on the criteria by which buttons might be sorted, I begin “Horatio,” (the Negro’s name is Horatio), “Horatio, slap the char lady. She’s pissing me off. And then note – Composition is the chief consideration. Not colour, size, shape or number of holes. Are they made of a single material or are they composite?”